12:13 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
I think need sleep. I only slept about 12 hours in 48 hours. Thats two days btw, yeah, its sucks.
Im such a terrible person. When im happy, i always forget to blog, too happy and absorbed in my little life. But when im sad, then i keep blogging non stop, like an addiction or madness. Oh ya, if the purpose of you asking me those questions is to mock me about my relationship theories, then i suggest, u should get something new to do, because i dont fucking care how twisted the theories are, they are mine. Do not jump into conclusions and make wild guesses without knowing the facts, thats uttering rubbish.
Well, in the mean time, i might have just found a happier side of myself. Beneath the ugliness that surrounds me. No one can make myself happier other than myself and sista, yj. Thus, i bet shes the only one who always stands beside me regradless of any quarrels or any disagreements. Other than that, my opposite sex bestfriend, he know himself. I still feel the comforting feeling talking to you. Always be my comfort zone, always been, always will. Lastly baby, rare jewels in the world to me.
Im gald that you people never gave me up, accepted that as a part of me for the past few months. Spoiled behaviour and stinks attitude.
Im actually sorry that i kept all my promises. That i kept all your secrets, that i kept everything that you have done. As angry and disappointed as i am, no worries, i wont sink as low as you, i wont utter a word to a soul. All secrets are safely with me, all along.
Out of sudden, my insecurities outburst. Finally, i realised, the more new friends i make, the more i lost. The relation will fade, once a closest sista, turns out to be so stranger today. Time spend unequally, i cant help it either. Neither do i want this to happen too. How you gonna think of my personalities, its up to you. As i said, i cant help it either...
I had my own life to care bout, busy enough.