11:12 PM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
At this moment, i sensed a side of happiness and another side of sadness in me. Im left with my blog to vent my anger, sadness and frustration on. Kea, i know you already read my entry. I think it should be considered a text betrayed? I dont know, its like a huge unsettle misunderstanding bcs the way u replied me, hmm sad. I wasnt in a right mood now, because my body heat was really on the verge of driving me suicidal even though i had my bath and the temp of the aircon was already at the lowest degree. Kea, you know what im thinking and whats on my mind. On another hand, i already promised baby. I should keep my words, yea. Putting yourself in my shoes, you will understand because by making those promises to someone important to me is the same as you making promises to your partner. You know what im persuing all along, after serveral attempt but still failure in life, how can u not know me well of what i really wanted? Its like, i felt so damn sad when u screened "theres nobody you can truly trust", and im like a failure to you as your friend. The first time i ever experienced this feeling. Really sorry, i didnt change at all, im still me. Maybe you will find that the good and trust in me is slowly disintegrating, and slowly it vanished. Afraid of losing a best friend like you, i wont do thing against my liang xin anymore. Hope im back, we will sort it out soon.
I read this somewhere, some survey sites. Which will you remember more? The day you laughed so hard with your friends till you cried, or the day you had your first painful breakup? Go figure and i had mine figured.
Baby, dont worry. I mean everything i said and promised you. Something, that will last and for all. Yeah, you are back tml. Anyway Nicole just told me, theres foam party during Mid Dec, thought of joining her hehe ;)
Felt so much better, the urged of crying is gone :)
Edited my friendster, wooo fresh look ;D